I feel as if I have lost myself completely to be someone I shouldn't be or trying to be.
It feels like I'm living someone else's life instead of my own.
I used to be easily contended with things around me,
not wanting more but just liking how things is.
The laughters no longer comes from the inside but merely a sound.
I feel so tired with things around me,
it seems like every single thing is eating up my energy,
making me left with nothing more but exhaustion.
So many things I want to say yet
I can't find the right words to describe it.
Happiness don't linger around for long,
it just stays for a moment and it's gone.
People who are important to me isn't that close to me.
The harder I try to get close,
the more fear is being imposed to them.
Maybe keeping a distance is the best way.
So many things weighing on my mind,
feeling so lost and stress.
Unable to find the serenity
and comfort.
Things aren't the same anymore.
B.Y.E